The Blessing of Being "Just Mama"

The Blessing of Being “Just Mama”

Today I awoke early to the sounds of a sweet little girl smacking her lips and chewing on her fist.  Nobody else would do, just mama. As the morning progressed a little boy got his head caught in his shirt and called down the hallway in a panic.  Sister tried to save him, but she […]

When more gives you less

When more gives you less

I love Christmas.  Truly, there isn’t one thing about it that I don’t love.  I remember as a child loving all of it as well.  Most of all, I loved the Christmas tree.  Every year I looked forward to going out to the local Christmas tree farm and cutting down our own, fresh Christmas tree.  […]

Brown Hair and All...

Brown Hair and All…

“Mommy, when is my hair going to be golden?  I wish I was as pretty as a princess.” And so it begins.  For 6 years, my sweet girl has lived in a world free from the evil of comparisons.  She lived in a place where she simply “was”, and didn’t “have to be”.  She lived […]

King and Snails

King and Snails

King Landon, while getting dressed for church, looked at himself in the mirror and said, “I look like a king!”.  Then he put his hands in his pockets, turned and looked at me with a big smile and said, “Look Dad, I look like a king!”  This is what the king looked like. Snails Aubrey […]

Lost and Found

Lost and Found

Sometimes I get lost.  I get lost while driving to yet another random event.  I get lost in my head, thinking of all the things that I have to do that day.  I get lost in the mounds of school books, the mounds of dishes, the mounds (and mounds) of dirty laundry.  Sometimes I get […]

When it is time to step outside of the bubble

When it is time to step outside of the bubble

Everyday it is so tempting to live inside my bubble.  Temperature-controlled, attitude- controlled, volume-controlled, this home is my place of rest and refuge.  In here it is cozy, it is safe. Here I am free to mother as I choose, laugh and cry as needed, and worship the way God asks of me.  Nobody thinks […]

The girl with the eyes

The girl with the eyes

I brush the hair out of her face, because I love to look into her eyes.  I remember the moment I first caught glimpse of the girl with the light blue eyes, framed with the thick blanket of lashes.  Squished tight with tears, her screams echoed through the hallways, because she has lungs just like […]

My enemy

My enemy

I have an enemy.  I hate my enemy with a deep and overwhelming passion.  If my enemy were to disappear from this earth, I would rejoice.  My enemy knows how to annoy and frustrate me, how to really get under my skin.  I try to run, I try to hide, but it is useless.  My […]

Perfectly Enough

Perfectly Enough

It was February 14th, Valentines day. Not just any Valentines day, but Aubrey Ann’s first Valentines day as a school-aged child, a Kindergartener.  I heard Aubrey Ann busily working down the hall. She came out of her room asking me what she should wear, I felt a twinge of guilt that I hadn’t purchased her […]

The Pink Sneakers

The Pink Sneakers

She begs to sit in my lap.  I say “yes” because I’m a softy that way.  Even if it is only from our mailbox, which rests just a few houses down our street from us, or around our small block, she loves to steer the car. She eagerly sits.  Her fuzzy pony tail tickles my […]